Having kept a diary for 2 weeks it was interesting to see how it made me reflect on myself.
I found that the biggest highlights from my diary was my constant ‘To Do ‘ lists, the amount of errands and chores demanded of me, my feeling about my weight and the feelings of being trapped.
By trapped I don’t mean in my marriage but by the complications of trying to please everyone except myself and the difficulty of working alongside my husband and the strain this puts on our relationship.
I have been thinking more about a self absented portrait, there is clearly a reason that I prefer to be behind the camera!
I have acquired a decorative bird-cage on my latest foray to the scrap store. This got me thinking about how I sometimes feel trapped/ cages as if my wings have been clipped. then I thought about my daily to do lists on post it notes, perhaps stuck on the outside of the cage hemming me in. On the inside of the cage I thought of hanging one photo of myself as if I was the bird but then I also thought back to my plans to take Polaroids as honest snapshots of myself and I thought perhaps I could take Polaroids to hang inside of the things that my diary has highlighted as being a part of me: My yo-yo diets, work, favours, lists, cooking, etc.
My plan is the spend this week keeping my to do lists and taking Polaroids then next weekend I will experiment with different ways of presenting it and taking photos of the final presentation. I might consider taking the images in my light box or hanging it outside.
Lots of ideas to work on this week, I just home my final image comes together in the way that I am picturing it.